haha. no idea what got me in the mood today.

there really isnt anything BIG to blog abt actually. silly stuff like finding yummy food places, trying out new bus routes, learning how to pay attention in lectures, dling new songs, appleshop person, learning how to sleep at 10.30 daily...erps. - the recent changes that took place this past mth. WOW big news yeaaaa?! hahahaha.

some other stuff im not so willing to share over here. problems that were encountered and settled -phew, at least they're settled! 2 of ridiculous stories with not so happy endings. i'll never forget them. erm erm erm. if u wanna look at things positively, i'd say its very much of a learning experience. well i totally love living man. its full of surprises -weird things happening, weirdest of people all ard - and im not even 18 yet!

oh. there isnt anything worse than losing yr diary is it? i feel so weird. i cant write anywhere, and things arent the same when u tell people. my dairy is embarrassing. EMBARRASSING. whoever's gotten hold of it will have a hell of a time reading. seriously i cant be more honest with anyone else except for my diaries. and gosh if smone reads it, i'll die!

speaking of which, i read through my secondary sch diaries the other day, and i wanted to slap myself so many many times. i keep repeating some traits over and over again, over the years - after so many other things change, like hairstyle and handwriting and warrdrobe. character traits are inborn isnt it? i think so! i always tell myself to learn fr my mistakes and move on. and i actually think i do!and i get happy! then smthing else happens again, and i realise ive only imagined myself to have changed, when actually im still rather the same. and so u mean ive been deluding myself?? aiya. piece of shit. try again!

but anyway, keeping diaries are good. its abit like yr very own life-story + alot more; abt the people in yr life, the way u felt as a 10year old, 13year old, 15, 17. why have u changed, is it a change for the better or worse, did yr friends change? or did u merely think yr friends change just because u did? or that everyone's changing, so u may click and be such good wonderful friends now, but it may not be the same anymore the next time?

hahaha, boring stuff? i know u all rather mug, dont pretend and act nice! haha