the sniffling is making me tired, and my mother said no going out even though its boring being alone at home.

but i get to raid the fridge. ate 12 oreos this morning in many many different ways. (i dont ever lose my appetite even when sick). i tried the twist-lick-dunk way. actually, its just twist-and-dunk. i had a big bowl of milk and then i threw the oreos in so they floated. it looked like a football actually, the big bowl of milk and floating oreos. :) heh. i was eating that with my brother while watching the portugal-france match in the early morning. a delicious football-looking breakfast to match the soccer match!

and there's this other way where u sandwich a scoop of cookiesandcream icecream in the middle. very very yummy, but its very troublesome cos u've gotta eat it fast or it'll melt.

the last way is my brother's way. he eats oreo with gardenia bread. i dont like it, but he does. i dont understand why really.

i like eating my icecream with bread though. early this morning i finished the bottle of chocolate-rice and chopped nut that way. i was topping off my icecream and bread combi with loads of nutsnutsnuts and chocolate rice. :)!

ya we were careful to clear all evidence that we were eating icecream, mama wld get so angry. no icecream when u have a flu and fever!!

okay its' quite boring talking abt food.

i'll update u abt my post-ct life.
had class chalet. i wont talk abt individual events or detail, like who-did-what, that'll be too long! to sum it up, it wasnt the incredibly-noisy-kinda-fun, but i thought it was rather loving. is that the right word? i dont know about you, but i was very happy. i liked everything that happened; the singing at the beach, the failed surprise, the vcd-watching, eating macs, the lovely sistertalk in the room (we love rama!). sam said the entire chalet-thing was sweet. i think thats the best word in the world. at least to us, it was. it was unanimously agreed that there was this sudden, new-found gentlemanliness in 6E guys ( !!!!!!!!!! ). haha. okayy, so it isnt 'new-found', u say? it was there all along?? yesyes anything. whatever it was, it was a lot of fun, and we really shd have one again.

ok maybe after studying. after As. or something. j2 life is miserable. my grades are reallly bad. i am so disgusted. i have the worst grades i know on anybody.

oh i know what's the main difference between my blog, and my journal. my journal's very personal, i'll mention names, and those i love, or those i hate. for instance i'll say specifically in there 'i love blah's mannerism' or 'i dont like blah's attitude'. i am just so bitchy in my journal. in blogs i hardly ever, ever mention names, noticed that? but anyway, i am such a bitchy bitchy person :( i hate that thing about myself. i am so judgemental. why why why? i want to walk around the world without judging people. i know some people that genuinely dont judge, but face it, most people do even if they dont say it. i guess not voicing your opinions out makes it better, but that doesnt mean you are saintly and that you dont judge. it's very instinctive to judge; to like, or not to like that thing about a person. i think everyone has that. i dont even think it helps if u eliminate critising, and start noticing the good-side of things instead. because that's still judging right? if u say "i like A, she's so sweet', yr saying u like this particular characteristic of A, that B,C,D,E and the rest of the world doesnt have. in other words, u've just noticed, what A has, that others don't have. is it like that? yes? no? haiya. it's only good when u dont notice at all, the good, the bad, whatever. i think its best that one live life as it is, doing things, and not analysing too much. i feel thats totally cool u know! but i dont know, now how are u suppose to do that?! that is so so not what i'm doing.

i think there's no fixed solution to go about it. since one cant help noticing that people essentially are different, it probably works if he notice these differences, but take it as a part of them, and love them for it. for instance, that person can be a moron, or weird, or eccentric to you at first, he may even have hurt you! but if u take on another perspective, he becomes quirky and cool and amusing, and perhaps he has his reasons for doing the things he did. and then the world becomes a happier place. it lies in the perspective. perspective!!

oh
i sound like a preacher!! :S
no. actually if there's anyone that needs preaching, it is me. me, me, me. i typed that so that it gets into my head. i guess this thing comes naturally to all the nice people in the world out there, but i think im not so nice in this aspect. there are many things i like about myself (secretly, i have quite a high level of self-esteem), but i dont like it when i think too much, analyse, judge, and be a little too erm, cynical for my liking.
it's not like i havent heard people bitching amg themselves. it's disgusting. i'll feel "eeew why is she being so mean!" almost immediately, and then i realise i might have sounded like that too.

i want to be alot simpler than i am now. not that i am very complicated, im not that clever to be complicated anyway! hahaha.
sheesh, now that ive washed my dirty linen in public like that..i dont know where to hide! haha. the entry's far too long, i cant bear to delete it. sigh. so to those reading, now u know u arent the only mean one in the world!