Saturday, Jan. 06, 2007

havent really been updating. actually, i havent been updating at all for the past month or so. dropped by and checked the stats today. GOSH. i dont know what u guys are thinking. people still do visit this place. oh no. im really really sorry! even with the cobwebs and the moulds and all the things that come with ignorance and age.

okay. so i've got a teeny weeny resolution to add to my list of resolutions this year: to update this place. regularly. say, once a week at least.

nothing's changed much. working really kills one's social life. either that or u incur a large sleep debt. whatever it is, i miss you guys loads. u all are in my thoughts all the time, its a little bit freaky, haha, im serious! im like half-hallucinating, or daydreaming! i dont know. haha. i can be folding the hoodies, or checking the stocks, greeting the customers, whatever - and then i suddenly think i see phoebe during ms lui's maths lesson, or i'll hear jieying talking abt food, or there'll be mel doing her usual crazy mel-actions or complaining abt benjy, sam will be brooding, and mich will be stressing out over some silly maths qn, jen and cyn will be somewhere, shrieking and laughing and pointing fingers at each other... oh gosh. i think im like, not paying attention at work huh? haha. i see geri the most of all. i see her in customers ('oh she dresses like geri, but too bad she's half as pretty as geri'), when im tidying up the counter ('geri will like this ladies cargo'), or when ive knocked off fr work ('is there time to meet her now?')

yesterday sam stayed over. it was pretty fun you know. having prata at joo chiat at 2am in the morn. walking around in unglam shorts and big-tee and shivering in the cold, cold early morning air. laughing, talking, singing, complaining. walking tru the cute obiang shophouses at joochiat, checking out the old sleazy china chicks ard the area.

it was alot of fun. maybe not like the 'WA im having so much fun!' kinda fun, but more the 'im so comfortable with u i dont care what i say or what i do' kinda fun. so we can talk rubbish, or not talk at all, and yet feel so contented. THAT is fun because we are so like, happy but at peace. you know what im talking abt?

sam said something abt her colleagues when we were eating prata, something abt 'they dont have friendships like ours'. haha. im not too sure about that one, but i do know that what we have is very, very special.

breakfast at macs this morn (macs breakfast with sam always starts the day on the right note.) shopping at orchard in the afternoon. bought a zara denim skirt.

then rushed off for my daddy's business presentation. woaahhh. it was alot of information to absorb. half the time i was trying to understand, and the other half of the time i was pretending to look like i understood. i understood la in the end, but it was hard trying to look clever in front of all the people when i hardly had a clue.

walked fr bugis to PS. met jonathan along the way. he looked different but i can pin-point exactly WHY. and then later on i met dearrr PHOEBE! she's as sweet as ever and she got a job that pays $8 an hour an gleneagles. every girl gets lucky when she's in love. when i fall in love, i'll get a job that pays higher too. its just that perhaps, i'll never fall in love!

and then it was back to sam. we had dinner at swensens. it turned out quite good u know! the spring chicken was nice, we were happy and leading our taitai lifestyles. ah! blissful yea. just that i think, we both were realllly sleeepy.

met sherry on the way back home. she was with her mummy and daddy, and she's working at hsbc :) everyone's working! its hard to meet up, but i really cant wait! i havent seen her in a long long time. i wonder how's everything!

oh ya. on 14 home today, i dreamt of rachel. my rachel kok from jiang. we were waiting for jiang lesson to begin, like we do every sunday at 2.30pm when we were sec3-4. we were talking abt the things we always talked abt, clothes and teachers, classmates etc. and then i was at home, sitting by the telephone in my room, talking to her. abt her nanyang friends in my jc, abt gu lao shi, abt my ex, abt her crushes.
and then i woke up sad. sad because the dream was over, and sad because i didnt know how to get those happy times back again. i must miss her quite alot to have this dream i think, but we'll say we meet up, and then we never get down to it. okay. i will set alarms in my phone to remind me - soemthing like please send rachel an sms NOW!!!

oh yes and i met ken and his friend greg at ps today too. havent seen him since delifrance that day. oh no am i losing touch with everyone?

maybe the reason for this mess is due to the loss of DuckyDucky. DuckyDucky is the name my brother gave my 07 schedule book. just bought it in nov 06, and i think i lost it a week or 2 after. gosh it wasn't even 2007 when i lose it. normally i'll need an organiser to do things. its a habit that i have since forever. i'll need to write out the things to do, people to go out with, expenditure, strike out the things ive done, goals priorities etc. i know its bloody childish laa, but i like jotting things down, so that when i look at it, its there screaming out at me; for eg "DONT SPEND SO MUCH MONEY' or "YOU ARE FAT". something like that.

blogging is a very narcissistic thing to do. havent been talking abt myself like that for long. actually, it feels quite good. that must make me quite a narcissistic person then.

ive been working for a mth or so, but i havent talked abt it at all. actually, im quite fond of the job. not the job in itself(its very boring), but the colleagues are a fun bunch. ruizhen and melissa make the place seem like some jc classroom. seriously, you guys will love them too if u were working here. it's so happy seeing 3 bags swished in one locker, with all our nametags and uniforms. it doesnt feel like work whenever they're around, it feels like recess! the place is like a classroom la, colleagues here are abt 16-22years i think, so the working environment is pretty young. there is ponning, and people being scolded for talking, smoking, going MIA. its really like sch u know. 3 times of trouble and u are out, like the pink slip system; the magic number being 3, the offences being roughly the same. gosh.

ive got loads to talk abt when it comes to work, since i work more than i sleep now (definitely). but right now im too sleepy. its 2.12am. will talk more the next time. btw this entry is realllY LONG!

jotted in plain black and white at 1.30a.m.
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